Dear mum

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It’s been three-hundred-and-sixty-five days and the hole in my heart hasn’t gotten any smaller. Sometimes the only words to say are, I miss you.

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13 Comments

  1. February 17, 2016 / 10:04 am

    <3 Such a hard thing to go through. I've never lost a parent but I have lost a Grandmother. It gets easier in time, although she will never leave your heart. 🙂

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      February 19, 2016 / 8:37 pm

      Thanks Megan – it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to deal with – she was one of my best friends. I can only hope that what ever I am doing with my life, that she is proud.

  2. Natasha
    February 17, 2016 / 7:09 pm

    That hole never really gets smaller. I am so, so sorry for your loss ❤️

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      February 19, 2016 / 8:38 pm

      Thank you Natasha x

  3. Deb
    February 17, 2016 / 8:55 pm

    Oh my goodness Jamie-Lee….I had no idea of your loss and grief….and I feel so sorry to read this. One year is so, so early in the grieving process. My thoughts are with you and please allow yourself to feel what you feel. Anniversaries and special dates can be harder than most. I personally know this pain and wish I could give you a big hug right now. Take good care. X Deb

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      February 19, 2016 / 8:39 pm

      It’s taken me a long time to come to terms with it, it was very sudden and not something that I really openly shared (even now it is hard to talk about it). I’m thankfully at home in NZ with my family right now and while it makes it harder, it also means a lot to be able to be here with them during this time. And thank you so much for the hugs (I’ll take a virtual one!) – I really appreciate it xx

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      February 23, 2016 / 7:14 pm

      Hi Deb! It wasn’t something I really shared when it happened – it was very sudden for me and I am truly still coming to terms with it all. It was admittedly very emotional being home, in the house I grew up with, and knowing that she wasn’t there – and won’t be, for all the milestones to come. Thank you so much for your comment, it means a lot x

  4. Chris
    February 18, 2016 / 8:20 pm

    So sad to read this post. Reading your blog is one of the highlights of my week and I wish I could send you even a little of the happiness you bring to your readers. I hope you’ve spent the day surrounded by loved ones and that the happy times you had with your mum have been at the forefront of your mind.

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      February 19, 2016 / 8:36 pm

      Thank you so much for your kind words, it’s still one of those things that I’m trying to wrap my head around and I really appreciate you taking the time to send me such a lovely comment. Wishing you all the very best.

  5. N
    February 21, 2016 / 7:36 pm

    I lost my dad 13 years ago in a car accident. I know the feeling. The hole in my heart hasn’t gotten any smaller, too. I have now accepted that it will never will. I miss him and I know that I will forever miss him. Time helps to take the anger away and ‘teaches’ you how to live in her absence. xx

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      February 23, 2016 / 7:33 pm

      Hi N, thank you so much for commenting, and for sharing your own story with me. I keep trying to focus on remembering all the good times that we had together – and hopefully the wound will become smaller with time x

  6. Heloise
    May 23, 2016 / 6:53 pm

    Hi Jamie, I’ve been a long time subscriber of your You Tube channel, & am only just now discovering your blog. Both are fabulous & I really resonate with your style.
    I lost my Mum at age 22 to cancer. That was 17 years ago now. I’m now married with 2 babies & not a day goes by where my Mum doesn’t pop into my head.
    One year into your loss is VERY early days. I’m so very, very sorry for your loss, your heart-ache and the absence you feel in your life. My thoughts about loss can be tidily summed up in one sage piece of advice; ‘the pain never gets any less, you just learn to live with it.’ That sounds a bit grim, but it’s meant in a comforting way.
    I do hope you find happiness, comfort and peace in your fiancé, friends and family. Virtual hugs your way xo
    PS An Auckland. NZ fan here!

    • jamie-lee
      Author
      May 27, 2016 / 8:26 am

      Hi Heloise, I’m so sorry for the late response. My grandmother passed away and I’ve been in Hamilton for the funeral service.

      Thank you so much for your kind words, that’s very sweet of you to say. Also, I know it was a long time ago, but I am so, so sorry for your loss. I also lost my mum to cancer and being in another country while she was sick, and not even knowing about it, just made the whole thing all that more difficult. I completely understand what you mean, and I try to remember all the good memories (there were a lot!) and get through it that way. I really appreciate you taking the time to comment and share your story with me – it’s such a hard thing to understand unless you’ve been through it yourself. Big hugs to you too lovely x

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